how our time passed in colour

i. Red;
The candy canes
You promised me over Christmas break
And forgot until
Long past new years
When you decided to drop by
And make my day

The blush on my cheeks
When you first said I was beautiful
And the blush on yours
(did you really blush or was it just me?)
When I tried to kiss you goodbye
And lost my courage
And kissed you
To the right of your bottom lip
Instead

ii. Orange;
My pencil across the page
As I would try and set you
Onto paper
So you'd be mine somehow
I’m still not there yet
And I don’t think I ever will be

iii. Yellow;
Sunlight streaming in through
Foggy library windows
And dancing in your dark hair
I wanted to reach out
And curl your hair
Around my fingertips
But I always made do
With just watching
As your dark curls
Fell over your shoulder
And onto the page
As you worked

The lamp light
And the wishing stars
That lit the night
While we leaned against your car
And talked
We both were nervous
And wanted to reach out and touch each other
(so, so badly)
But we didn’t
So we restrained ourselves
And fiddled with our hands

iv. Green;
The jealousy I felt tinge your words
When someone else
Believed I could be theirs
But you didn't know
I would only ever be yours

v. Blue;
Your car in my drive way
Waiting to take me away
On our first date
Where you payed for everything
(you were so stubborn)
And I didn’t even know
It was a date
Until later

The colour of the dark room
Where I was so lonely and sad
Even though you were so near
I held your hand that night
Clinging to the idea that you were
There and
You held back

vi. Violet;
Eyeliner I wore
The first time we met
It smeared (every-fucking-where)
When we all played paintball
And you still had the audacity
To think I was pretty back then

You dyed
The understands of your hair
For the swim team districts
Your hair was so dark

vii. Indigo;
The colour of the movie theatre
When the lights went out
I would keep looking over at you
as you smiled and laughed
And I really wanted
to lean my head on your shoulder
But I wasn’t sure if I should
and I didn't;
I should have